I am ….

You tell me “I am”. You tell me “I’m here”. I struggle, I want to know the answers, I want to see the way paved out before me. I come to you on bended knees and ask you, what is it you have for me?, What is my purpose? show me the way. You don’t answer. At least it seems.

Then I hear you. In the white clouds that form in the sky, in the tender green of new buds on a tree, in the cool wind that blows on a summer night, in the evening sky that falls dotted with stars. You wrap yourself around me. You don’t give me the answers I am looking for. You simply whisper to me … “I am”, “I am here”.

The thoughts come, they race. What about this, what about that? What if I never figure this out? I toss and turn , I can’t turn off the thoughts. I bring myself to the bathroom ,splash cold water on my face. Dear Lord help me, help me sleep. Turn off the thoughts that race in my mind. I feel the coolness of the tile as I kneel in prayer to the floor, I hear the clock ticking reminding me that morning will come. You don’t answer all the thoughts racing in my head. You simply come to me in the silence of the night … as I climb back into bed and you tell me “I am”. You tell me “ I am here”. I find a moment of rest in that peace as I close my eyes knowing you are with me.

I wake in the morning and see the light filtering in through the blinds. A new day. My mind immediately goes to my check list. What do I have to do today? What do I have to complete?  I take a moment before my feet hit the floor and I say Good Morning God. Thank you for this day. Be with me, speak to me. You say to me “I am”. You say to me “I am here.”

Is it enough? My mind, my body ,my flesh wants answers, proof , a paved out route, a detailed map. But you don’t answer those prayers. You come to me in simple whispers of truth . Simple statements of comfort. “I am”. “I am here”.

Let it be enough of dear God. Let you be enough. Help me to surrender the thoughts, the wanting, the dreams, the desires, help me to trust it all to you and know you are the great “I am” and you are near, you are right here.

May the walls of YOUR Jericho come a tumbling down

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 Joshua 6:10

  But Joshua had commanded the army, “Do not give a war cry, do not raise your voices, do not say a word until the day I tell you to shout. Then shout!” 

The Israelite’s  have just been instructed by Joshua that they are going into Jericho.  The city of Jericho has a wall around it that they can not pass.  They are not going in such a way as we might expect.  There is no obvious  force or might , there are no type of explosives provided.   They are  just simply told to march around the city for six days then on the seventh day to march seven times then blow the trumpets .  This is their instruction .  They are merely told to march and blow trumpets.

Prior to going in they are also instructed to not say a word.  For seven days they…

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Here I am

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Psalm 27:8                                                                                                                                                         My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”  And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.” 

As I walked down the road , I came around the corner and the trees started to swallow up the sky.  I was enveloped in a blanket of bright green spring. This sense of being blanketed in nature spoke to me of God’s love. I am protected. I am shielded. I am embraced. He circles me with “I love you”.  This love is present at all times. I am utterly cherished and adored by Him. I can not escape His love nor  can I comprehend the depth of it. At a time like this I catch a glimpse of it. It takes my breath away. My soul gasps and my heart is brought to its knees.  There is nothing I can do to earn this love.  It is free . It is pure. It is enduring.  All I have to do is accept it. Trust it. Follow it. Rest in it. My Lord says “Here I am, all around you, you are safe, you are loved. Come and be with me.” and I say ” Here I am Lord, I am coming, coming to you”.

A Dependent Freedom

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The tree

The tree grows with it’s roots firmly planted in the earth

The earth provides nutrients, stability and a place for the tree to become mighty and strong

The tree grows freely yet at the same time is dependent upon the earth

The earth does not rob the tree of life or take away from it … on the contrary it provides for it, sustains it and allows it to grow

A baby

A baby is protected by it’s mother

A mother’s eyes always keep watch over her beloved child

A mother holds her baby, nurses it, lulls it to sleep

The baby needs it’s mother for nurturing, love, and provision

God is our sustenance as the earth is to the tree

God is our nurturer and protector as the mother is to the baby

God does not take away our freedom , on the contrary He provides and He loves so that we may have it

Freedom is not the absence of this dependency; it’s the ability to grow, and become that which you were intended to be while resting in the care of God’s hands.

God’s Affirmations … A prayer of Truth

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If you are anything like me the voice of the world can get in your head. That little voice that tells you things like you are not good enough, you don’t measure up, you are not qualified enough, pretty enough, thin enough, smart enough, whatever enough …

But the truth is that these are all lies. Lies that are told to us somewhere along the way and they become our mantras, our meditations.

Scripture teaches  “For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he” (Proverbs 23:7).  The thing is that we are all going to think something , we are all going to repeat thoughts in our heads and we all end up believing in something. These thoughts become our reality as we literally think them into existence.

With that being said … what we feed our mind is critical. Just like proper nutrition is vital for our bodies … purposeful, intentional thoughts are vital for our emotional and spiritual health.  Food for your soul is just as important as food for your body.  The quality of the food we provide produces what we get.  Like the old adage goes “Garbage In, Garbage Out”

Below are affirmations of my own I have collected over the years which are some of my favorite bible verses worded into personal affirmations and linked together.

I share that they may help you in the way they helped me to walk in the truth of who God says I am and not what poison or trash I have put or was put in my head along the way.  I’m certainly not perfect but a continual work in progress.  This practice has helped me unlearn toxic thinking and get into alignment with God’s truth.

I firmly believe that we become what we think.  May the thoughts and words you put into your mind, heart and soul lift you up into the person God created you to be.

Your faithful love never ends, your mercies never cease. Great is your faithfulness oh Lord. Your mercies are new every morning. In you Jesus, I put my hope. I think about the things of heaven and not of earth. I know you God cause everything to work together for the good of those who love you and are called according to your purpose- I love you God, call me according to your purpose.

Mountains may move and hills may disappear but your faithful love for me remains God. Your covenant of blessing will not be broken over my life, this is what you say to me God, you who have mercy on me. You will show me the path of life. In your presence is my joy. Through you I stand firm. Through you I will not be moved. I give myself full to you Lord for I know what I give over to you is never in vain. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. For you God are bringing me into a good land – a land with brooks, streams, and deep springs gushing out into the hills and valleys.

Your grace is sufficient for me – your power is made perfect in my weakness. Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses so that your power , the power of Christ rests in me. Nothing is Impossible without you dear God. You created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. You will never leave me nor forsake me. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; I am your work and your works are wonderful, I know that full well. I know the plans you have for me, plans to prosper me, not to harm me, plans to give me a hope and a future.  All glory to you God who are able to do immeasurably more than I can ever ask or imagine according to your power that is at work inside me.

Whatever I learn or receive from you God, or see in you God, I put into practice. Your peace is within me. I do not worry about anything, but instead pray about everything, I come to you and tell you God what I need. I thank you for all you have done and all that you will do. I am strong and courageous for I know you are with me wherever I go. You alone make me dwell in safety. I trust you God, my heart seeks you and I know that you will never forsake me.

Thank you for teaching me, guiding me, protecting me, loving me, forgiving me. I am yours and you are mine. This is your day you have made and I will rejoice and be glad in it!

God’s Upside Down Kingdom

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God’s upside down kingdom

It’s not the way of this world

Down is up and up is down

We die to live

We suffer yet find joy

We surrender our will and find victory

We find freedom through sacrifice

We lead by serving

We find blessings as we give up our own way, our own rights

We give away and become rich

We love our enemy

We go the hard way yet find rest and peace

We get lost to find our way

Down is up and up is down

It’s not the way of this world

This is God’s upside down kingdom

The Wind

The wind. You are that which I can not see, yet I feel you blow right through me … strong enough at times to even knock me over. You cool and refresh me on a hot summer’s night. I can’t capture you in a jar yet I can rely on your presence. Whether you are barely there in the slight graceful breeze that rustles through the trees or as mighty force to be reckoned with, blowing fierce in a storm. There are times when it seems you may be gone … hot , dry and barren … oh then I crave your breeze to blow. I open the window to let you in and yet other times I hide from your bitter cold. The wind. Beautiful, majestic, mighty wind.

God, like the wind, goes right through me seeing straight into my soul. He cools and refreshes me , yet terrifies me as I know all there is to see. I can’t capture Him or quantify Him yet I sense Him all the same. He is gentle and mighty. Graceful yet fierce.  I open the window to my heart to let him in. Whether I feel it or not I can take solace in knowing He is there. Beautiful, majestic, mighty God … let your spirit come upon me like the wind.