Everyone loves a story of transformation. We think of the caterpillar changing into a butterfly. This fuzzy little creature that now takes flight and children marvel at … we too want a life like this. We want a story to tell of how we have been transformed.
But maybe we have it wrong. Maybe we were not meant to live transformed lives , maybe we are meant to live in the very process of transformation. Maybe life is actually in the cocoon. This word transform in the past tense, is such a nice word. It has a starting and an ending , it’s the happy ending. It’s the story we all want to tell. It’s the story of the beautiful butterfly flying into the wind. But the word transformation … it is one suggesting a process that is not yet finished. An ongoing story. The cocoon can be dark, unknown, and scary. I can’t tie a pretty bow around it or put it in a neat little box. But maybe this is just how it is supposed to be.
God calls me to put my trust in Him and walk with Him where He will daily provide for me and daily transform me. From now until the day I am called home to him. I will never “arrive”. I will never reach “nirvana”. I will stumble, fall, get better, and some days I might even seem to be worse … but in it all as I follow Him he molds me, He transforms me. I learn to surrender more and more and realize the control was never even mine to begin with.
I learn to trust in the cocoon … in the dark, in the unknown. I am made to live in this process of transformation. Always seeking. Always learning. Always growing. There will always, always be more. It is not past tense , it is current tense. My transformation is now. It lives and breathes and beats with my very own heart.
I need not try to reach a particular destination. I need not dream of becoming the butterfly. I just seek His face, listen for His voice, follow His lead. It is about my relationship with Him. There is beauty in this cocoon. I surrender reaching the finish line and instead focus on being in His presence. It is in this process that I discover this art of living in transformation.
Psalm 16:11 You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.